Struggle to change my life

When you in the hill seeing so many house with the light on,every each house have their own story,how about yours?if god give me second option in my life to change it,i will make a decision carefully ,to change it a better way,not egotistic decision at the end it's hurt so many person who love me most,i want to do something i missed in this few years,learn more language,go traveling where ever i want,write where ever iam,try to know more people and learn how they struggle their life and can survived and take more picture of life.try be more happy and happier each day.