life

i was been thinking in my last journey when walking at the sea side,it make me rethinking what i have been trough  in my 34year life.so much wasting time with useless thing,easily get bored,upset,tired,crying and depressing.compare a life with other people i know my life was a dull story.i hate my life and mistake decision i make in my 34 years time.i have terrible marriage,i would like to change it but i dont know how to end it.
i need to believe what i need to believe in my life.struggle feeling i have everyday is useless with out action.just need  a good time to have my life back.wanna leaving all this bad live behind and just see what in front of my life.

My Wishes...

That would be good if someone have a gift as jumper,you can go where ever you want to see and feel it or change it.that is amazing people who have so much talent in his/her life.i'am been thinking how's feel if i become that person with so much talent?.it's must be fun and enjoy that kind of life.but we live in real world and have to accept who we are?and what we fight for this life, to make it meaningful for future.now i'am start from small thing like writing and share with people,try to search meaning in my life, wishing and hope it's become much better each day in my life.it's become true someday and i will follow my dream and wishes....

Marriage mean...?

Why small thing can make someone so upset? and why someone always feel sorry even not her mistake?.
since both people commit to married it's should be first learn how to manage anger and selfish?
sometimes people should put a side egoistic when you have problem or in hard situation,actually mariage not just about love and passion,mariage is another chapter of life to learn how to sharing about everything in your life with someone you love.and learn how to deal with 2 different character even that good or bad habit. it's should be 2 people put their dream.hope.love,passion and understanding in their marriage life.
what marriage mean to you...?

Precious time

Time after time goes by,Year after year pass by.what ever your thinking and feel it,if that make you suffer and stuck,its time to let it go and step forward,start a new you and become a good person more happier each day and each year.every second and every hour its a precious time to make some valuable thing in our life,dont waste so much for something useless and sadness thing.learn how to love our self and other people around you.that is one of good lesson of life....

Questioning of my life...

In my next few year how is my life?did you ever ask your self,Is there any miracle change my life more interesting and colorful,or is it still the same like last fews year I go truth.I always ask when and when my life would change 
I never have a courage to step away,why and why should I regret decision I make?all decision I make from my egotistic I hope god show me the way out.I can start a new life. It's seems I really miss what it's call happiness.in this fews year it's enough I wasting my life for tears and questioning.I hope can do something more meaningful for my self,family,friends and people out there.

Struggle to change my life

When you in the hill seeing so many house with the light on,every each house have their own story,how about yours?if god give me second option in my life to change it,i will make a decision carefully ,to change it a better way,not egotistic decision at the end it's hurt so many person who love me most,i want to do something i missed in this few years,learn more language,go traveling where ever i want,write where ever iam,try to know more people and learn how they struggle their life and can survived and take more picture of life.try be more happy and happier each day.

Mirror of life

Sometimes we see someone life very insteresting and our lifes so dull,sometimes we looking for something that we think we never had before,but the truth every people life have their own problem,it's all depending how they see and solve their problem from other angle of life.some people can go truth all his or her life and love problem happily,some couldn't handle it because its so much pressure and didn't find any solution to solve it or someone to talk about,and the end suicide they think is the best option to solve a problem.did you ever think about it? may be.the truth i ever in this situation feel like a hell but thanks to go my mind still conscious make me think i have to be strong ,it's just one of life barrier,there is so much love from my parents it's make me strong to go truth this life,and now i start to see my life problem in other side from other angle,then we can see other beautiful life that we past before,i just can saya please never ever give up your life for some stupid decision,start to dream because it's make you become someone,dont be afraid to dream even sometimes result not the best,but still you a person who have a dream.give some space for life and your heart then you can start open your heart and open your mind.be grateful to god every each day when you wake up.